Hurting in the worst of fields..

So today I had a terrible realization due to my parents but at the same time I couldn't ask for a better thing to happen to me. As much as I hate to admit it when they are right and as much as it may hurt at times, especially since they know exactly how to hurt me the worst because they know me better than anyone else. I just don't really know how to put it. I mean have you ever had reality just slap you in the face even though you already know that it's bound to happen but even seeing it coming, slowly counting down the days till it does it still kind of kills you to hear it? Well that's kind of how I feel right now, like it was the atomic bomb for me (that is if I was Japan and I was at war with U.S.A. instead of my parents but the comparison was understandable).

Maybe whats needed is for me to be blown up and completely torn apart before I do recover, like that would make sense. After a major tragedy happens to a place it always rebuilds itself and comes back 10x better than it was originally. Maybe I can be just like that? Well I guess I can hope I can be anyways, I mean what else can go worse from this point? Rock bottom has already been hit and I'm pretty sure there is no secret underground basement that I can find, so I think I'm good.